Category Archives: Personal

A New Year

new_yearMy sisters and I (that’s me in the white sweater) with our significant others this past Christmas.

Long time no blog! It’s hard to believe that it’s already March and we’re a couple weeks away from Spring. It’s been a pretty snowy February up here in the northeast, and I still long for those mild Tucson winters. But so far, it’s been a pretty good year. My sister-in-law gave birth to a beautiful baby boy, my twin sister, Jackie, is getting married later this month to a guy that I love like an older brother, I’ve been doing a lot more artwork lately, and Jon and I are planning a trip to Iceland this Spring!

Jon, me, Jackie, and her fiancée, Chris.

At the end of last year, I was caught up with a lot of anxiety and stress, so I started busying myself with other creative endeavors and began digital painting again. Maybe if I’m feeling up to it, I’ll start an art blog/portfolio blog in the future. We’ll see! In the meantime, you can see more of my artwork on my DeviantArt page here.

nova_artworkA sample of my more recent work!

I haven’t fallen off the beauty blogging bandwagon. and I actually have a bunch of new stuff I want to share and review within the next few weeks, especially skin care items. This bitter cold weather has me itching (literally) to try some new things.

Hope you’re managing to stay warm! How’s your year been so far?

Fun Find | The Wild Unknown Tarot


As mentioned in my previous post, I recently started playing around with tarot cards again. I came across The Wild Unknown Tarot and was immediately drawn to the artwork.

It is a self-published deck that was illustrated by the very talented Kim Krans. It’s a standard 78-card deck. It comes in a sturdy box with a black lifting ribbon. In lieu of the typical “little white book,” the deck is accompanied by a double-sided fold-out sheet. It lists the meanings of each suit (swords, cups, wands, pentacles) of the minor arcana, the major arcana, as well as each individual card with a few keywords. Sort of like a tarot cheat sheet. The guidebook comes separately. It features an introduction to the tarot, how to do simple spreads, grayscale images of the cards and goes into more depth with the artist’s interpretations and meanings.


If you’re looking for a deck that mirrors the traditional Rider-Waite-Smith imagery, this is not it. It’s easy to see how some of the cards “nod to” some of the RWS symbolism, but overall this deck is quite unique.

Each card measures 4.75″ x 2.75″. They’re made of thick, nice quality card stock with a matte finish. They are not glossy or slippery, and feel very comfortable to handle and shuffle. There’s something very primitive and simplistic that I love about the artwork. Krans uses pen, ink and watercolors. I love it when you can literally see the artist’s “process” in the medium they use. Even the backs of the cards are beautiful and kind of hypnotic.


The deck is full of animal and nature imagery. Each suit of court cards features a different animal “family” — instead of your standard page, knight, king and queen, Krans uses daughter, son, mother and father, respectively.


The images are mostly black and white, with a very selective use of color. The limited colors definitely add to the mood of the cards that use them. Some of the cards are quite dark or disturbing (worms, eyeballs, a buffalo carcass), but then there are also cards that are very upbeat and ethereal (butterflies, twinkling stars, rainbows). The deck doesn’t try too hard to be a certain way.

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Some cards are much more minimalist and abstract than others (see above), which can make it harder for those just starting out with tarot to understand their meanings. But I think it can be more fun this way. It engages our intuition at a very primal level — our response to color, placement, direction of line, negative and positive space, shapes, textures, etc. Meanings may not be as blatantly obvious in representational depictions featuring people or animals, but I think once you do get an idea of what it means, it’s a very honest interpretation.

I’m a big fan of this deck, and I recommend it. I look forward to discovering new things about the imagery as I continue to work with it.

My Tarot Experience


Long time no blog. I’ve rediscovered my interest in the tarot recently and have started putting more effort into working with and understanding the imagery. I’ve been having lots of fun with it, so I thought I’d share my personal experience.

I was first introduced to the tarot in high school, when I acquired my first deck — the Hanson-Roberts deck. It was a time when I was suddenly intrigued with the metaphysical and pagan culture. I’d skim through the cards while perusing the accompanying guidebook. To me, it became more of a game of memorization rather than developing an intuitive thought process. It was kind of overwhelming — “How am I supposed to remember all of this? 78 cards with different meanings (plus reversals!).”

I abandoned the deck for a good few years, but have since become very interested in learning to read the cards again. Jon gifted me a beautiful deck last month — Kat Black’s Golden Tarot, and I’ve been practicing again ever since, even maintaining a tarot journal that I write in almost daily. This time, less effort is spent trying to memorize the traditional meanings, and more is spent on noticing my immediate emotional responses to the images presented to me. It’s a lot of fun to discover that your first instincts often align with what the standard textbook meanings are. For the first time, my tarot cards didn’t feel like flash cards.

I’ve been looking for other decks with artwork that I feel very connected to (there are literally hundreds to choose from) and came across The Wild Unknown Tarot by Kim Krans. The artwork is just so beautiful. I think I’m going to do a separate post just to review the deck.

I’m not seeking to develop “psychic” abilities or become a fortune teller. For a lot of people, tarot is a very spiritual experience (maybe even religious or magical), but for me, it’s more of a practical meditative guide. I think it’s a really fun and interesting way to tap into your creative insight and view certain situations from different perspectives, and maybe even find out more about yourself. I love looking at the artwork and comparing different artists’ interpretations, and learning more about the symbolism and history of such an intricate system.

Do you have any experience working with tarot cards? Have you ever had a reading done? What was it like?

My Acne Story


Acne is a sensitive subject for me. It has been a significant source of my insecurity for a very long time. Even now that I am older and my acne is [usually] under control, I still become very self-conscious about my “bad skin days.” For the past couple of years or so, I have been able to find great comfort in hearing about other people’s experiences and struggles with dealing with acne. I thought I’d share my acne story too. 🙂

Yay, Puberty…
I started getting my first pimples in the fifth grade. It didn’t even start to bother me until some of my classmates asked me about it — “What’s that on your forehead?” Ah, the catalyst for years of self-consciousness. My skin started becoming oily, and I developed blackheads on my nose. I started washing my face every day, but when that didn’t seem to be enough, I turned to makeup. I used my mother’s foundation almost every morning to conceal every blemish as best I could.

Middle School & High School
The severity of my acne peaked through middle school and high school. I would describe it as moderate acne. It seemed like when one pimple healed, a few more popped up the next day. And I was a such a “picker.” I remember crying about it sometimes. Before bed, I’d go into the bathroom to brush my teeth, but I wouldn’t turn on the lights because I couldn’t stand seeing my own reflection in the mirror. My doctor prescribed a topical antibiotic. I didn’t notice much of a difference in my skin (except increased irritation) so I was finally referred to my first dermatologist. I was on an oral antibiotic for a little while, but a prescription topical retinoid seemed to provide the most improvement, at least for a few years.

Once my skin seemed to be under control for the most part, I eventually stopped the prescription retinoid and just used over-the-counter products for a while. At this point, I was better about cleansing and treating my skin consistently. I was on the ProActiv system for a year or two, but found drugstore brands to be just as good and cost-effective. When I was diagnosed with depression a couple of years into college, all of the emotional stress began manifesting itself physically, and my acne seemed to come back in full force again (which didn’t make dealing with depression any easier of course…). Eventually, I was back at the dermatologist’s office, this time for a combination of topical antibiotics and benzoyl peroxide. My skin got a little bit worse before I started noticing an improvement again.

Post-College & Present
I sort of came across the most effective remedy [for me] by accident when I was prescribed birth control pills for the first time. The unexpected side effect of clear skin seemed to indicate that most of my acne was actually hormonal. For the first time since I hit puberty, my skin was actually pimple-free.


Of course, this is not to say that what has worked for me will work for everybody. There is no one-size-fits-all remedy for acne-sufferers. Many people have even been able to find great improvements with a more natural, drug-free approach. It took me many years to figure out how to control my acne. I’ve stuck with a consistent skin care regimen, making sure to cleanse and moisturize daily, as well as apply adequate sun protection. Over time, you start to learn what your skin needs to look and feel its best. I only wish that during that period of trial-and-error, I was better equipped to deal with the emotional issues that came with having acne.

My skin is far from perfect, and I still get breakouts (especially during that time of the month), but instead of longing for “perfection,” I’ve learned to make more of an effort to just take better care of my body and become more comfortable in my own bare skin. My skin is much healthier now than it was years ago, but I’m still working on building my self-esteem back up.

I’ve had people make rude and judgmental comments about my pimples before, and that always fueled the fire of insecurity in me. I’ve never had anyone sit down and tell me that my acne didn’t make me hideous or unattractive. I think having acne held me back from being more comfortable in social situations. If I was having a conversation with someone, I’d always assume that they were looking at my zits, and not at me.

So I’m here to tell you now that acne doesn’t make you ugly, or unclean, or stupid, or unworthy. It may take some time to find what works best for you, but in the mean time, understand that your acne doesn’t define you or lower your value as a person. I know that sometimes it can feel like people are looking at you with a magnifying glass when you’ve got angry blemishes on your face, but nobody’s going to bed at night wondering why you had those big zits on your chin.

How have you dealt with the physical and emotional issues of acne? I’d love to know your story too. 🙂

Picture Post | Niagara Falls + Ripley’s Aquarium of Canada

pp_nf_4pp_nf_3pp_nf_1pp_nf_2pp_ra_3pp_ra_1pp_ra_2pp_ra_5pp_ra_41. Our first view of the American Falls from the American side.
2. The American Falls, with the Bridal Veil Falls to the right, viewed from Skylon Tower.
3. Cooling off under the Bridal Veil Falls.
4. The Horseshoe Falls, viewed from Skylon Tower.
5. Sawshark. Didn’t know there was such a thing!
6. Delightfully colorful coral reefs.
7. Eels.
8. A pair of sea urchins.
9. Cute jellyfish.

Tag | “Why Do You Wear Makeup?”


1. “When did you begin wearing makeup?”

I began wearing makeup in middle school to cover up puberty-related acne. But it wasn’t until my skin started clearing up (just a few years ago!) that I actually began enjoying makeup as something that was fun to do and experiment with, and not just something that I thought I needed to feel better about myself.

2. “How do you feel without makeup?”

Honestly, I don’t always feel my best without makeup, but I never want to become the type of person that cannot leave the house without having it on. It’s important for me to be able to feel comfortable in my own skin. I’m trying not to depend on makeup to feel good about myself, and I never want to think of my “makeup face” as my “normal face.”

3. “What do you like about makeup?” 

I often feel like I am pampering myself when I put on makeup. I enjoy the process. It can help make me feel a bit more polished or awake. I like how it can be used to complement an outfit or fit a certain mood or style — playful, sophisticated, androgynous, retro, feminine, etc. I think it’s also cool how makeup can be used to enhance and alter one’s facial features (like theater/special effects makeup).

4. “What are three of your ‘Holy Grail’ (HG) makeup items?”

• Vichy Dermafinish Corrective Foundation in “Opal” (formerly called “Vichy Dermbland Corrective Foundation”). Like many others, I discovered this gem after watching Lisa Eldridge’s Acne/Blemish Covering Makeup Tutorial. It’s my go-to for covering zits or other dark spots.

• Kryolan Anti-Shine Powder. There’s no such thing as a “bulletproof” powder for oily skin, but this is the closest I could find. You can read my full review on it here.

• Sephora Collection Skin Perfect CC Cream in “Light.” It’s one of my more recent favorites. It has the lightweight feel of a tinted moisturizer, but provides a bit more coverage. I’ve been enjoying it more and more now that the weather is warmer and more humid.

I would love to know your answers to these tag questions too. 🙂

Mindful Monday | Fitting In

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The sense of belonging is an important basic human need. I’ve often thought that the issue of “not fitting in” was a concern reserved mostly for children and young adults. Yet sometimes, I find myself worrying about it, far beyond those high school years.

I worry about fitting in with friends, co-workers, acquaintances, even family (both my own and my in-laws). Even when surrounded by friends and loved ones, it can be very easy for me to feel like the odd one, and a little bit out of place. I remember those first feelings of “not fitting in” when I began recognizing the cultural divide between my “American side” and my “Filipino side;” it was hard to fit in with other Filipinos because I only spoke English, and sometimes it was hard to fit in with other Americans because I don’t look like most Americans. It was uncomfortable straddling that fence. At times, I felt like I didn’t really belong anywhere. I didn’t “fit in.”

It’s only recently that I’ve started to feel okay with myself. I’m still coming to terms with my differences and shortcomings, but I’m trying not to let my flaws or unique qualities become barriers that prevent me from establishing a sense of belonging with the people in my life that matter. I know it can be hard to feel like you’re part of the group, when you sense that might be the most insecure, strange, or flawed person in the room. I think my husband, Jon, has been helping me a lot with overcoming that. I love that I can totally be myself with him, and I want more people like that in my life. I think that if you ever feel pressured to change or to become something or someone else for the sake of feeling like you really “belong” with those around you, then it might be time to find other people to associate with.

Tag | 21 Questions – Get To Know Me


I don’t have an “About” section on this site, and I always enjoy reading tag posts and watching tag videos, so I thought I’d add my first tag here. 🙂

Are you named after anyone? 

Nope. Although, I do have a twin sister who is named Jackie, and according to my mother, they were considering naming the second twin to come out “Jackie Lou.” Would’ve been me… glad it didn’t happen!


With my womb-mate, Jackie.

When was the last time you cried?

Maybe several days ago? I think I cry pretty often…

Do you have any kids?


If you were another person, would you be a friend to yourself?

What an odd question. Would it sound conceited if I said yes? But would I sound pathetic if I said no? Err, I’m going to go with “yes.” I think I’m pretty easy to get along with.

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

I think I only use it around people that know me, because if it was someone who didn’t know me that well, they might think I wasn’t being sarcastic and just being nasty.

Would you ever bungee jump?

Maybe with another person? I’m afraid of heights…

What’s your favorite cereal?

It’s a tie between Honey Nut Cheerios and Cinnamon Toast Crunch. I like sugar.

What’s the first thing you notice about another person?

Probably their body language.

What color are your eyes?


Scary movies or happy endings?

Scary movies! I don’t know too many people that like scary movies. I hate being scared, but for some reason I have this twisted, morbid curiosity.

Favorite smells?

Sizzling bacon (even though I try not to eat it anymore), vanilla, birthday cake, cookie dough, chocolate… basically anything sweet. And bacon.

Summer or winter?

If I was still living in Arizona, I’d say winter. But I’m back in New York now, so summer!


Sometimes I miss that dry heat.

Computer or television?

Computer. Kind of cheating, because I can watch TV on my computer.

Farthest you’ve ever been from home?

The Philippines. My first time there was when I was a toddler, with my paternal grandparents. Last time I was there was when I was about 10 or 11 years old. I’d like to take Jon there to meet the rest of my extended family.


That’s me in the black-and-white shoes.

Do you have special talents?

I’m an artist. I like to draw!


Closeup of a pen and ink self-portrait I made.

When were you born?

December 10th, 1986.

What are your hobbies?

Drawing, reading, writing, watching movies/television, taking photos, traveling, going for walks, trying new foods, shopping.

Do you have any pets?

I have a blue tabby named Misha.


What’s your favorite movie?

(Strangely enough, not a scary movie!) It’s hard to pick just one. I really loved Selena. I enjoyed it during my childhood, and I love her music. I could stumble upon that movie on TV and always stop to watch the rest of it. I also really love this Chinese film called To Live. It’s probably one of the most depressing movies I have ever seen, but it’s incredibly moving. It’s about hardship, fate, and optimism. Add them to your to-watch list if you haven’t seen them already!

Do you have any siblings?

I have a [fraternal] twin sister named Jackie and a younger sister named Christine.


Me on the right, in my ombré glory at Christine’s wedding.

What do you want to be when you grow up?

I still don’t know! I want to continue to make art, but I am also considering a career in health care. So we shall see!


I tag anyone who would like to answer these questions themselves. 🙂

New Site, New Beginning!

I’m not new to blogging, but it has been a while. I have had a couple of blogs in the past, first on Blogger and then on to WordPress. I started years back in high school and would post my random ramblings on a regular basis.

I don’t recall why I stopped blogging for a while, maybe because I realized I never really had anything remotely interesting to say LOL, but I really enjoyed writing, reading and interacting with others in the online “blogosphere” community (any fellow Asian bloggers remember Rice Bowl Journals?) My husband Jon recently starting blogging again (he used to have a Livejournal account long ago), so that inspired me to get back into it too.

This site is going to be a bit different than what I’ve been doing in the past. Before, I was just posting about my day-to-day life and random, disjointed musings, but now I thought it would be fun to focus on specific topics that I am interested in, like food, self-care/self-love, beauty, skincare and personal style. I am, by no means, an expert or maven in any of these areas; they’re just things that I love. 🙂